My vaccine story is long and complex starting over 20 years ago with my first child having vaccine reactions.
Over the next 20 years as I read more and more similar stories and met more and more mums in similar situations, we became a community of hard core anti vaxxers. I participated in rallies, events, partitions and social media groups. My friendship group was made up of those with similar values inside and outside the church. Although I refused to get into arguments or heated discussions with others, most people around me knew where I stood on this and I would rally around and gather people into participating with us.
I felt verse 4 of D&C 89 speaking of the evil designs of conspiring men described the vaccine industry perfectly. The knowledge that aborted fetal cells are used in vaccines helped cement this viewpoint.
When my eldest child decided to go on a mission and needed to be vaccinated with all the shots he had missed plus the new ones to go overseas, I prayed about what we could do, my answer was a clear voice saying to me, 'I take care of my servants'. I trusted the spirit and moved forward in faith.
In general I had become suspicious of the whole medical industry and we used a naturopath instead of a doctor, she helped his body manage the chemicals and he was absolutely fine.
When Covid hit and the talk of a vaccine began I thought that there was no way they could have one that quickly. I felt we had time on our side and by the time there was one available covid would be gone again or morphed into something else.
As the vaccine became available and more and more people began having it, I knew that we would end up being a minority and perhaps even become targeted. I prepared myself for the onslaught. I have been called tenacious many times and it never occurred to me that I might give up my way of thinking.
My husband had been on board from the beginning and it was our way of life. In Australia the Govt gives stay at home mums a payment depending on your family income, not even the threat of losing that could change my mind.
Only one thing could change my mind and that was the threat of losing my standing with the Lord. Losing the blessing of my most precious possession- the gift of feeling and hearing the spirit of the Lord.
My love of God trumps everything. My goal is to be a member of the church of the first-born, to retire to Zion, to see Him and wash his feet with my tears. I visualise Him there every Sunday when I take the sacrament. I visualise Him everyday when I hand over my sins and weaknesses and ask Him to take them, purify me and strengthen me. To bless me to be pure in heart and create Zion in my home and my life.
As I read the letter from the First presidency, I knew that if I did not follow the Prophet and receive this vaccine that I would eventually lose my faith and the blessings associated with that.
That very day I explained to my husband why I would be getting this vaccine and he simply said, I understand I will too. I feel so blessed to have a wonderful eternal companion that has the faith to see what I can see.
For me its all about following the Prophet. I made my appointment to get the jab and my heart was racing. I hung up the phone and burst into tears. Tears of relief. I have made my choice to follow the Prophet.
Just in the last month we were told that my husband will only be able to work if he is vaccinated. What a relief it was that we didnt need to worry about this.
The journey is not complete as we have a 5 year old who needs to be vaccinated next, its one thing to do it yourself but another for your child, but I am relying on that very first answer I received for my son all those years ago that the Lord takes care of His servants. Either way if something bad happens to her, it will be a choice and a sacrifice that we have given to the Lord and we are choosing to have faith and trust in the law of obedience and sacrifice.
I know we will be blessed now and into the eternities for making this decision and I am grateful for the peace that I feel in this knowledge. I say this in the name of Jesus Christ Amen
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